My Brother, My Heart, My Best Friend

Red Bird
Patty's Letters to Heaven
Bubba and Patty
Bubba and Son Bryan
Bubba's Family
Bubba's Niece Casey and Family
Bubba's Nephew Chris and Family
Bubba and Nephew Shane
Memory Poems
Bubba Nascar In Heaven
Bubba Go Titan's!
October Breast Cancer Awareness



It all started morning of March 31,1958 I was born and what a joy I was to my family and friends, for 43 years. Then on Sept.18th, 2001 every ones life changed. I arrived in Heaven surrounded by thousands of Angels. No more tears, no more pain.

First thing I felt is pure Love and Joy & Peace.

I got the best gift of all this Year; Love from the Lord Above. Spending Eternally here in my Heavenly home. Do not worry that I am not with you on earth for I am with you in Spirit now.

It is ok to cry, cause I know you miss me dearly.

 Just know I now sing the songs of Love and happiest I ever been in my life.

The children to the oldest, we asked Jesus to give you a special message that on that day Sept.18th, 2001 it was my turn to leave earthly home and reside in our Eternal home here in Heaven.

So In turn Jesus said ask them to send me all the tears to Heaven and I will gather all the tears and comfort them. So send me your tears.

When you see the stars so bright at night, know no darkness lives here in Heaven. Think of me under the biggest star that will light up the sky. When you are feeling lost and miss me so, remember me in your heart for I am always there. As a heart beats red, Jesus shed His Blood that we might spend Eternally here in Heaven.

I am safe waiting till you get here. I know your soul and heart ache, it is ok to cry, send me your tears. I will send you comfort.

When you see a Star or feel the wind blowing just remember my Love will never fade, It is ok to Love again. I

n time you will see thru your tear soaked eyes that you can move forward.

When you see others smiling , know I got the best gift being here with Jesus. Let your heart remember the moments we shared while I was there. It will always be a delight seeing your face light up.

It is ok to cry, Send me your tears. May Jesus comfort and heal your pain. Live life to the fullest each day. Go out and share your memories. Just remember to send me your tears when you need to cry.

Love you, Patty

From Bubba


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This memorial website was created in love to honor and celebrate the life of  "Gary (Bubba) Haywood"

 My Brother , My Heart My Best Friend

Who was born in Alabama on March 31, 1958

And soared To the Heavens on September 18, 2001

At the age of 43.

I will love, remember and   Cherish Him Forever.


Up until September 18, 2001 suicide was a stranger to our family. Suicide was something that happened to a friend of a friend or it was something we had seen on TV, but now suicide is a very real part of all of us who knew and loved Gary (Bubba) Haywood.
Although it was he who made the decision to take his own  life, we are the ones left behind to try and pull together and survive it. This web-site is to share our memories and support each other in our sorrow of losing a son, brother, husband, father, grandson, uncle and cousin.
Suicide is often judged to be essentially a selfish act. Perhaps it is, but the Bible warns us not to judge, if we ourselves hope to escape judgement. I believe this is one area where the Biblical command especially should be heeded. Please do not judge him by how he died but how he lived and loved.
Bubba, I am so sorry... I can never turn back time but I hope you know how much I love and miss you. Always on my mind....forever in my heart!
Bubba, have a beautiful day in our Heavens above and I am sending you kisses on the wings of butterfies. Help watch over and take care of all of us, and HELP me to go on and get through the bad days. I will forever love and miss you my little brother.




The best and most beautiful
things in the world cannot be
seen or even touched.
They are felt with the

~By: Helen Keller~


Bubba was the beloved son of Oscar and Marie Haywood, loving grandson of the late Bernard and Ola Mae Haywood, as well as the late Gladys Vail and Theodore Waggoner. He made his home in Nashville Tennessee. He has a son Bryan Michael, born on October 31, 1978. He was a bright moment in everyone's life who really knew him. He was loving, patient, kind, and helpful to everyone. He loved dogs, plants, Titans Football, and Nascar Racing. He also knew how much he was loved but never knew what a beautiful person he was. His memory will always be in our hearts and our loss is Heavens gain.



This Is What I`d Say To You


When I must leave you for a little while

Please do not grieve and shed wild tears

And hug your sorrow to you

through the years.

But start out bravely with a

gallant smile;

And for my sake ad in my name

Live on and do all things the same,

Feed not your loneliness on empty days,

But fill each waking hour in useful ways,

Reach out your hand in comfort

and in cheer

And I in turn will comfort you

And hold you near;

And never, never be afraid to die,

For I am waiting for you in the sky

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When you look upon

the dark of night and see a

twinkle of light, remember that it is your Angel,

 the star that shines so bright!

Letting you know he is with you and loves you so!